On Sunday, the cookbook author looked back on the challenging year she’s had, sharing a photo of herself and her husband John Legend eating at New York City restaurant, Frank. In the photo’s caption, Teigen reminisced about their early days living together and eating the lasagna verde at Frank’s every Thursday. “We used to live just a couple blocks away, right across from the Hell’s Angels in the East Village,” she wrote. “John had a basement apartment with a roommate and I used to sneak cigarettes (ew) through the little half window that lined up with the sidewalk. Basically a window where you could only see people’s shoes. Anyhow I’d either drag [her dog] Puddy’s big ass to sit outside at Frank, or sometimes sit at the kitchen bar alone, reading Glamour and trying everything on the menu.” She added that, at the time, she was “basically a functioning alcoholic” who couldn’t stop buying “hats I didn’t like or need at Urban Outfitters.” Teigen announced she had completely stopped drinking in December 2020.
The Sports Illustrated model went on to explain that she’s been “reminiscing about New York a lot lately, when things were simple, thinking about all the stuff I’ve done and been through not just this year but in my life” as she’s been feeling “slightly down lately.” She elaborated, “It kind of started when I was thinking of my book caption and typed out ‘my third baby is here!!,’ as in cookbook, then realized my third baby will never be here. Then I realized I threw myself into the book to not think of the real, actual third baby. I don’t really feel like I fully processed Jack and now that I don’t have the alcohol to numb it away, things are just…there, waiting to be acknowledged. I guess what I’m saying here is life is so fucking complicated. And get the lasagna??? Wow this was a rollercoaster!!!!!”
Last September, the couple announced the loss of their third child on social media after Teigen was hospitalized due to bleeding during her pregnancy. She wrote on Instagram at the time, “On this darkest of days, we will grieve, we will cry our eyes out. But we will hug and love each other harder and get through it.”
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